When I get better, they’ll see the real me
When the curtain opens, I’ll be happy to be seen

When I get better, the hole will be gone
I’ll feel like laughing and finally move on

They don’t know what I’ve been through
They don’t know what they would do
I’ll lay my head back now and rest
All I can do is have patience

When I get better, I’ll finally have time
To become who I want and not sit in silence

When I get better, life will be real
The future will exist, I’ll be able to feel

They don’t know what I’ve been through
They don’t know what they would do
I’ll lay my head back now and rest
All I can do is have patience

I know you’d be proud of me
I know you’d see what they won’t see
You are part of what makes me
When I get better I’ll be free

My grandmother Nancy was always one of my favorite people to see. Her cooking and happy smile always put me at ease. I remember staying with her on days when I was feeling too “sick” to go to school. If she were still here with us, I know things would be different. I would get to tell her the things I am saying in this song. People have judged me, limited me, and tried to hold me back. That is something she just didn’t do. She truly saw who I was and held me in her arms just as tight. Lots of times people forget that everyone struggles with their own things. I think this is something she was always aware of and I have always tried to be aware of it too. In many situations I have felt like I didn’t belong or didn’t deserve to belong. She never let me feel this way. She never let anyone feel this way. When I was little, we were on a long car trip and I kept asking when we would get to our destination. She told me to be patient and I said “How do you do that?” She tilted her head back and looked up at the ceiling and didn’t say a word for what seemed like forever. Then she looked at me and said that’s how you do it. You just have to lay your head back and be really quiet. That was the day I became an expert on being patient. And that moment was one of the inspirations for this song. This song is a letter to her.